my depression

born in the southern land where a man is a man, don't remember too much, warm mama cold touch, post war baby boom, 50 kids in one room, all white, future bright but living in a womb, got a tv receiver, jerry mathers as the beaver, no blacks/no queers/no sex/mouseketeers, daddy kept moving round, i can't settle down, always the lost new kid in town. manlicher lock and loaded, jfk's head exploded, dark figure at the fence, end of my innocence, hormones hit me, chew up, spit me. get stoned, get plastered, always was a moody bastard. guitar fool, kicked out of high school, joined a band/vietnam/mama-san/killed a man. daddy gets real sick, it's too intense, i can't kick it buy myself a ticket to the usa. oh my god, it's my life. what am i doing kicking at the foundations?, that's right, my life. better start looking at my destination. hollywood sex-rat, been there/done that, jaded, afraid i'd never get a turn at bat. last in a long line, finally hit the bigtime, goldmine, feeding time, money/fame i get mine. use it, abuse it, daddy dies i lose it, get a wife, get a son, beget another one, my head said "god's dead", motor-cycle-body-shred, big life crisis rears it's ugly head. oh my god, it's my life. what am i doing kicking at the foundations?, that's right, my life. better start looking at my destination. well prozac, lithium, could never get enough of 'em, last wills/ shrinks bills/sleeping pills/sex kills, edge of sanity, my infidelity, looking in the mirror and thinking how it used to be, don't like the skin i'm in, caught in a tail spin, honest-to-god vision, spiritual transmission, climb aboard the life raft, looking back i have to laugh, take a breath, don't know if i'm ready for the second half. oh my god, it's my life. what am i doing kicking at the foundations?, that's right, my life. better start looking at my destination, my life, my depression, my sin, my confession, my curse, my obsession, my school, my lesson, my depression my depression