special

nothing sinister starts out sober, sometimes the chemicals work me over, the things you learn at 4 am, when do i become who i am?, save your blast from the past, this is not a mirage, i'm a stolen car in a parking garage, on your hands and your knees, do you feel in charge?, crawling back to who you were, i just wanna feel good, i wanna feel special, deep down underneath the pressure, i wanna fake my pain away, i wanna fake my pain away, i just wanna feel good, i just wanna feel good, and fake my pain, i just wanna feel good, i just wanna feel good, where's the time go? here comes the heavy load, i've got two houses and a hungry, hungry ego, hard to make the best of a good thing now, 'cause this town's too big, too big for the one of me, sometimes you'll make friends with the enemy, am i the one on the phone or a wannabe?, are you crawling back to who you were?, 'cause i just wanna feel good, i wanna feel special, deep down underneath the pressure, i wanna fake my pain away, i wanna fake my pain away, i just wanna feel good, i just wanna feel good, and fake my pain, i just wanna feel good, i just wanna feel good, i just wanna wake up, put a smile on my face that isn't made up, float just like a feather, or sink just like a stone thrown in a river, i just wanna feel good, i wanna feel special, deep down underneath the pressure, i wanna fake my pain away, i wanna fake my pain away, i just wanna feel good, when the hell is it gonna get better?, i just wanna feel good, and fake my pain, i just wanna feel good