endless night

is it a sin, to miss the hell, that you survived, with best of friends, at worst of times, i never got the answer, they never told me, if you're not careful, what doesn't kill you, can control you, now it defines me, and it reminds me, that it will never let me go, if we share the pain, then maybe we won't have to bury memories away, i try to change, but the dawn escapes again, i fight another endless night, when it gets dark, i can not breathe, it's only the sound, of grinding teeth, afraid of the silence, and it's lurking violence, your empty words, the feigned concern, we go through the motions, i never return, cause it still defines me, and it reminds me, that it will never let me go, if we share the pain, then maybe we won't have to bury memories away, i try to change, but the dawn escapes again, i fight another endless night, i try to change, but the dawn escapes again, i fight another endless night, i try to change, but the dawn escapes again, i fight another endless night, is it a sin, to miss the hell, that you survived, with best of friends, at worst of times, i fight another endless night, i try to change, but the dawn escapes again, i fight another endless night, when it gets dark, i can not breathe, it's only the sound, of grinding teeth, afraid of the silence, i fight another endless night