visions of a life

the skin on my bones is leather cold, poisoned my heart beats slow, fear of crashing and not coming back, i'm a curse to my friends, to be condemned, mistakes i made and won't mend, fear of crashing and not coming back, i dream of death, its violent breath, i'm caught with my maker in step, fear of crashing and not coming back, i could bleach my soul but he knows i know i'm coming to dine in his hole, fear of crashing and not coming back, visions of a life, where i was satisfied, feed my hungry mind, where are you when i close my eyes?, i left this world behind, for the world i'd built inside, feed my hungry mind, where are you when i close my eyes?, why do i feel so strange?, a nuclear family and friends my own age, i follow the rules, do what it says on the tin but i'm still on the outside still looking in, why was i born with itchy feet?, and why do i hate all the people i meet?, people's ideals give me the chills to the bone, i got 1 thousandmillion friends and i feel so alone, stay as you are, everybody likes you, everybody cares, there's some insight for you, i'll get my coat, i'll be the bitch, i heard that journeys end in lover's meeting, but my journey ends when my heart stops beating, i'm leaving, stay as you are, everybody likes you, everybody cares, there's some insight for you, i'll get my coat, i'll be the bitch, i heard that journeys end in lover's meeting, but my journey ends when my heart stops beating, i'm leaving, human heart in my hand, heart in my, human heart in my hand, taking it back, eyes straight ahead, cut it in half, better than dead