painful

i light another cigarette, stop to think about it, come to no conclusions, take each step as it comes, hold no prisioners except myself, painful thoughts denied, try to explain, my loss of words, fuck you i piss upon you all, my head is a barricade, filled with peaceful thoughts, with evil outcomes, no one understands, try to break the barrier, i see no outlet, no ones there to catch me when i fall, try to explain, my loss of words, fuck you i piss upon you all