runaway

, i said all that i'll say, so i stand with no apologies, i've popped all that i popped, wasn't too recently that it got to me, those of ya'll that love joe, gotta admit the shit was a lot to see, today i take all of the credit like i did away with modesty, i lost weight, lost faith, i got caught up in that vacuum, my stomach turned and my eyes burned, and i became best friends with the bathroom, today it takes all the strength i have inside for me to avoid the rush, face pokered over the toilet, all you hear is a royal flush, was under the control, though they warned me about addiction, mind manifested again in the form of a prescription, and it's funny what the effects of that little pill'll do, funny shit that keeps you alive can also kill you, but it's my life, guess i'm stuck in it, sometimes i wanna just be normal like them other kids, the demon i battle with every night is simply drugs and shit, but i'll runaway from it all if god deems that i've had enough of it, they say don't get lost, you are the leader, and don't do that, be a believer, when the sun goes down, you better hide, it's a dangerous world, better stay inside and, run along, run along, it's a long long way, home from here, run along, run along, it's a long long way, home from here, yeah, uh, it go, how come they can roll? ya'll tell me how come they can smoke, they can drink?, they get to do whatever they want and it don't interrupt the way they think, they all get to be regular, why is it only me this odd?, me who can't even stand up straight, me who can't even keep a job, maybe i'm asking for too much, a tiny piece of normalcy, or answer to any one of my fucking prayers that's asking what's wrong with me, maybe i'm tired of being unique, tired of being that outcast, i'm tired of me being the only one, so tired of you all not knowing about that, i'm tired of it all, want me to fall a spectacle, for the crowd to see, or being the only one with faith, i'm tired of everybody doubting me, i'm tired of responding to grown ass folks that think so motha fuckin childishly, aches, wish i could take my parents' genes the fuck up out of me, tired of wanting to run somewhere, tired of having to bare it all, tired of you fucks constantly taking from me and i'm willing to share it all, tired of being objective, i'm tired of having to hear it all, but being alone is the only way i know to never be near it all,