so few

i alone, cry beside her, pushed away, once too often, face that lie, vision changes, shade is ice, the words are poison, changes made now why can't i, fill the face in the mirror, what i want still you won't give, but i cannot hate you, oh, you're a monster, blood alone, stains the sorry, tired eyes, my skin seems heavy, mind astray, the sane still laughing, images, all worth losing, changes made now can't i, fill the face in the mirror, what i want still you won't give, but i cannot hate you, oh, you're a monster. you don't know, the hate i have, inside, if you could see it you'd be, terrified, you would, kill me at once. but even by killing, me you can't free, yourself from my hatred. you can, kill my body, but i'll never leave you in peace. you cannot believe what your in for, the screams burn your eyes, the feeling of leaving yourself dies, scratch out the real you, time ticking away the killing, choking on sorrow, now you're dead and didn't listen, gave into the fear, i'm not the one who takes from you, i need you, in time there is no joy, but still you've lived, i just can't see when i lie, i am, so few like them, in the way