don't wanna be here

look, girl we could of been forever but its no the same, you used to be my alibi to take away the pain, remember staying up late talking over things, now every single fight i'm the one to blame, what is love? i'm stuck reminiscing, from memories we shared my mind truly wishing, i wish i could forget but i can't cause i'm missing, every part of you now this agony is hitting, do i really hate you or maybe it is me?, i feel this demon taking over shit is killing me, i promised you i would change but its not the case, i know i cheated and i lied karma took its place, life is too damn short to be miserable, sometimes the hardest thing to do is to let her go, if it ain't meant to be well at least you tried, and if i walked out the door i would wonder why, sometimes i don't wanna be here, it's a living nightmare, i don't wanna be scared, looking at myself in the god damn mirror, things will be alright, you just gotta say a prayer, like whoa, what the hell you doing, man?, better put that gun down, it is not the end, there will be brighter days, focus on the sun, been a long damn journey, but i'm having fun, uh but before was in a dark place, cold nights from mistakes that made my heart break, i laid awake ask god for the strength, then he showed me the way all it took was some faith, yeah, look, cause nothings ever really meant to last, you gotta find your own happiness that's a fact, what's a friend when they go and stab you in the back?, why does everybody judge from a dreaded past?, you only got one life so don't let it slide, cause people leave us and don't get a chance to say goodbye, i still miss you big homie know you in the sky, looking down every time that i go spit a rhyme, i've succeeded what they said i couldn't ever do, and if we go our separate ways i'll still think of you, girl you changed me for the better now i'm living proof, without support that you have gave me swear i would be screwed, i'm gonna cherish every memory good or bad, sometimes i think about the future what we could of had, but then i realized it all happened for a reason, it made me stronger than i was so i start believing, sometimes i don't wanna be here, it's a living nightmare, i don't wanna be scared, looking at myself in the god damn mirror, things will be alright, you just gotta say a prayer, like whoa, what the hell you doing, man?, better put that gun down, it is not the end, there will be brighter days, focus on the sun, been a long damn journey, but i'm having fun