up hill both ways

everytime i try, to read between the lines, i'm left wondering what i did so wrong, everytime i try, try to rationalize, when everyone went wrong why didn't we die?, everytime i think about, what it would be like without, all the things you give to me, all these thoughts keep running through my head, nothing to believe, look back, find the things i lost, there's nothing left there, so it seems, up hill both ways, nothing left to say, yeah, i don't know how i made it this far, i don't know how, i made it last this long, i don't know why, i try, all these things keeps going through my head, don't know which way to turn, each path, goes up hill both ways, nothing but dust, since i learned, up hill both ways, nothing left to say, i don't know how i made it this far, i don't know how, i made it last this long, i don't know why, i try, up hill, both ways, nothing left to do now, i don't want nothing to see