happier sad

falling out again, just when everything was working out, and it's all because of me, cos i like the way it feels to live in doubt, it's high time i start to learn, to live my life with a poker face and then, all these emotional feelings i can't ignore, aren't on display to the whole world anymore, am i happier sad?, it's all over and done, and i'm warm inside my melancholy mind, kinda feels secure, the best cure for a heartache i can find,