not even close

i have a dream of living a life that's easier said than done. stare in the mirror i'm unfascinated with everything i have done, i'm faking my way, living it down, oh my god i'm lazy and i'm frenzied, licking my wounds, and moving ahead, but i can't take this wine and bread, i'm not even close to where i want to be, and all of the people, as small as we are, are crying out with our hands, feeding the poor, feasting on sunsets, take it away my friend, all of the hands are having their way, licking their palms for a taste of grace, i'm saving myself for all the moments that i'll never have, i'm not even close to where i want to be, and all of the people, as small as we are, climb out with our hands, i'm unfascinated as small as i am, nothing else here is grand, so take me away, and move me ahead, so i can take a taste of wine and bread, i'm living it down, it's all that i have, this is about the things i'll have, mercy, cause i'm not even close to where i want to be, i'm unfascinated by everything else, and me