layers

one by one, stings my eyes, each is gone, each a disguise, smiling, so aware, precious moments so rare, boiled thoughts, evaporated - gone. can't bear the loss of never loving you, so jaded, so wrong, stripping my skin over again, back when they were teaching me to color in between the lines, in the cushion of my soul i found a remote and now it's changing time, peeling layers, layers, layers. stripping my skin over again, shivering pale, under my nails, back when they were teaching me to color in between the lines, in the cushion of my soul i found a remote and now it's changing time, peeling layers, layers, layers. escape in a drug not lasting enough, now i just use my fingers for love, rocked back, forth, cornered alone, purging mind feeds a starving soul, uncoil, unwrap, shed, scrape, peel, naked, alive, tear down -- feel.