dead

i've made mistakes, been dishonest, self-estranged, did what i wanted, i was a fake, i slept just the same, i'm not a saint, no, i'm not a saint, oh, no it doesn't make sense, oh, no i don't understand, when things are good, i don't believe that they're for real, i really wish i could just tell myself i gotta feel, feel something else instead, cause lately life is like a dream, it's messing with my head, i must be dead, i've been a wreck, took things too far, made a mess, felt like a star, i've broken hearts and goddamn i slept the same, i'm not a saint, no, i'm not a saint, oh, no it doesn't make sense, oh, no i don't understand, when things are good, i don't believe that they're for real, i really wish i could just tell myself i gotta feel, feel something else instead, cause lately life is like a dream, it's messing with my head, i must be dead, so, suddenly it's all picture perfect, life is so good and i don't deserve it, when things are good, i don't believe that they're for real, i really wish i could just tell myself i gotta feel, feel something else instead, cause lately life is like a dream, it's messing with my head, i must be dead, i must be dead, i must be dead, i must be dead, i must be dead