push you away

this bed is just an island where it doesnt have you, roll over seven times and there will still be tons of room, alarm is going off choking coughing spit the reasons why you wont call me back, i got a clue, this s*** is crazy did i just get lazy?, figured it was fine, finally hear you say im out, see you later, blows my mind, i need a shrink just to tell me what i think, i wont know just when you faded, count the times how long i waited for this moment to arrive, i push you away, i push you away, i push you away, now youre gone, youre gone, youre gone, i push you away, i push you away, i push you away, for so long, so long, so long, you're looking better more than ever, oh, how can it be?, i'm feelin *****ty from the pity i've been giving me. im getting emails from my friends, all saying "what's the deal? you can't just act normal like it never happened", i took your toothbrush off the sink and then i put it back, i rearranged the closets manics swinging from the racks?, i've always hated that your shoes smell like tennis balls, but now i kinda really miss it. i wont know just when you faded, count the times how long i waited for this moment to arrive, i push you away, i push you away, i push you away, now youre gone, youre gone, youre gone, i push you away, i push you away, i push you away, for so long, so long, so long, i thought i could do this, i thought i was strong, to pick up the pieces of where we belong, i push you away, i push you away, now youre gone, i know i said, that you dont own me, just leave me alone, i wish youd never listen to me. yeahhhh!, i push you away, i push you away, i push you away, now youre gone, youre gone, youre gone, i push you away, i push you away, i push you away, for so long, so long, so long, i thought i could do this, i thought i was strong, to pick up the pieces of where we belong, i push you away, i push you away, now youre gone, bapaduh bapahduh awahoo