hotel room

i can't leave now, yeah i'm stuck though, i let myself down, had to let go, 'cause i can maintain on my own now, and i can't look back, wish i could though yeah, and i don't really wanna say this part, i'm afraid of what you'll blame me for, even though i know it wasn't my fault, i can never seem to get that far, all these vices, bars, lines, percocet, the worst part's over, but i'm still sober, 'cause now my house feels like a cheap hotel room, and if i wake up, won't be until noon, heart-shaped stains on the dirty carpet, everywhere, i never got a chance to see what's out there, i connect dots on a popcorn ceiling, waiting on life to come and find me, before i do, spending my time in the workshop, obsessing on these songs 'til they all drop, i'll keep you entertained with my dark thoughts, 100 000 streams for a soft spot, and i don't wanna relive this part, i'm afraid of what you'll blame me for, even thought i know it wasn't your fault, i can never seem to get that far, all these vices, bars, lines, percocet, the worst part's over, but i'm still sober, 'cause now my house feels like a cheap hotel room, and if i wake up, won't be until noon, heart-shaped stains on the dirty carpet, everywhere, i never got a chance to see what's out there, i connect dots on a popcorn ceiling, waiting on life to come and find me, before i do, and i don't really wanna say this part, i'm afraid of what you'll blame me for, even though i know it wasn't my fault, i can never seem to get that far, all these vices, bars, lines, percocet, the worst part's over, but i'm still sober, 'cause now my house feels like a cheap hotel room, and if i wake up, won't be until noon, heart-shaped stains on the dirty carpet, everywhere, i never got a chance to see what's out there, i connect dots on a popcorn ceiling, waiting on life to come and find me, before i do, - you are a freak, - what?, - no, i'm serious, you're a freak, do you wanna be normal? do you wanna be just like everyone else?