drown me

i trapped myself here with all eyes locked on me, except the ones that i adore, i can't speak, i lash out, find me convulsing on the fucking floor, stare at the wall and strain until my head explodes, 'cause no ones coming through that fucking door, fuck, god dammit, no!, don't give a fuck how you're feeling, don't give a fuck about what you have to say, don't care if someone has it worse than me, tomorrow does not hold a better day, i'll do whatever it takes to make you look at me that way again, to make you lost in me like i'm lost in you, i'll do whatever it fucking takes, to ruin, to haunt you, to make you lesser, to break you the fuck down, irrelevant, isolate, last night i put my belt around my neck, but i'm still here, still a fucking wreck, i guess i'm just selfish; i needed something permanent, i'll no longer be degraded; i'll just decompose, terrible memories in once wonderful places, i can't seem to find the the beauty in anything anymore, drown me in the ocean you hold in your eyes, drown me, drown me, fucker, drown me, yeah this is how i'll fucking die, hold my head under wet lying lips, kiss me goodbye, kiss me goodbye