my heart will never know

i pour two cups of coffee, put the paper on the table, so we can share the morning news, your voice answers our phone when we're not home, friends who call can leave a message here for you, every night i leave the light on, you're just working late, as far as i can see everything is still the same, and my heart will never know, so i don't fall apart, i fool myself for another day that you're not really gone, after all this time it's still too hard to let you go, as long as i don't say, "goodbye" my heart will never know, it's been a long cold december, the snow outside keeps fallin', i light a fire when you get home, it reminds me of the first night we made love, like it would last forever and nothing could go wrong, you're a part of me, a part of everything i do, so i keep holding on, hiding from the truth, so my heart will never know, so i don't fall apart, i fool myself for another day that you're not really gone, and after all this time it's still too hard to let you go, as long as i don't say, "goodbye" my heart will never know, and after all this time it's still too hard to let you go, as long as i don't say, "goodbye" my heart will never know