numb to it

, imagine being eight, and never feeling safe, my momma's crazy husband put a pistol to her face, he knocked me on the ground and told me that i had to wait, gotta watch yo momma die cause her and jesus got a date, it fill my heart with hate, never give in, so we take, then when my brother passed, i wish i could've took his place, wait, wait, you see, i ain't wanna live, pain lies in death is what i knew as a kid, so afraid of love, to scared to ever cross that bridge, not one to mess it up in these relationships i'm in, not again, who the hell am i supossed to trust?, when he beat my mom for years and all she did was show him love?, all the tears they slowin' much, know my fears, i'm growin' up, don't play me like a chump, i'mma get you what you want, i'm so tired of being weak, got a gun from down the streets, said i'mma kill him in his sleep, sixteen, i was a beast, twenty years i'll be released, got it on my mom for weeks, i'mma take us both beneath, i'm just numb, i'm just numb to it, i'm just numb to it, don't wanna feel the pain no more, oh, yeah, i'm just numb, call me numb to it, i'm just numb to it, don't wanna feel the pain no more, oh, yeah, i'm just numb to it, they said i was bein' dumb, really i just needed love, so i had my babies young, for you i'd fight the moon, and protect you from the sun, with daddy on your side, baby, you ain't gotta run, stand strong, keep your head up, the world can be against us and i promise we won't lead up, but if they knock you down, just be proud, you can get up, keep your hunger in that drive even when you fed up, i'm just numb, i'm just numb to it, i'm just numb to it, don't wanna feel the pain no more, oh, yeah, i'm just numb, call me numb to it, i'm just numb to it, don't wanna feel the pain no more, oh, yeah, i'm just numb to it, i'm just numb to it, i'm just numb to it