hate myself

i don't see you like i should, you look so misunderstood, and i wish i could help, but it's hard when i hate myself, pray to god with my arms open, if this is it then i feel hopeless, and i wish i could help, but it's hard when i hate myself, late nights are the worst for me, they bring out the worst in me, mind running, got me feeling like it hurts to think, if this is all that i wanted, i don't want it, gotta be more for me, more than core beliefs, and every morning i wake up, and feel like i am not worth it 'cause i'm at war with peace, i go to hell, welcome to the corpse of me, look at the body like you ain't nothin' but poor and weak, it's kinda weird, lately i've been feeling like the only way, for me to get away is if i poured a drink, that's more deceit, more defeat, is this really what i'm born to be?, that's what you get for thinking you're unique, so poor but i'm so wealthy, need help but you can't help me, what else can the world sell me? tell me, lies, i still buy 'em like they're goin' out of stock, but it's not healthy, i don't see you like i should, you look so misunderstood, and i wish i could help, but it's hard when i hate myself, pray to god with my arms open, if this is it then i feel hopeless, and i wish i could help, but it's hard when i hate myself, yeah, late nights get the best of me, they know how to get to me, suicide thoughts come and go like a guest to me, but i don't wanna die, i just wanna get relief, so don't talk to me like you think i'm so successful, what is success when hope has left you?, i am not a spokesman, i'm a broken wreck, whose sick of doin' interviews 'cause i hate myself, ah, come across like it's so easy, but i feel like you don't need me, when i feel like you don't need me, then i feel like you don't see me, and my life has no meaning, dreaming, hands out, tryna ask for love, but when i get it i just pass it up, throw it away and think about it later, diggin' through the trash for drugs, i wish i could give you what you needed, but i can't i'm scared because, i don't see you like i should, you look so misunderstood, and i wish i could help, but it's hard when i hate myself, pray to god with my arms open, if this is it then i feel hopeless, and i wish i could help, but it's hard when i hate myself, i walk through the ashes of my passions, reminiscin' with the baggage in my casket, get lost in the questions i can't answer, can't stand who i am but it don't matter, we scream to be free but i stay captured, knee deep in defeat of my own actions, feel weak but the peace that i keep lacking, keeps speaking to me but i can't have it, but i can't have it, keeps speaking to me but i can't have it, but i can't have it, keeps speaking to me but i can't have it, i don't see you like i should, you look so misunderstood, and i wish i could help, but it's hard when i hate myself, pray to god with my arms open, if this is it then i feel hopeless, and i wish i could help, but it's hard when i hate myself, hate myself, but it's hard when i hate myself, hate myself, but it's hard when i hate myself, and i hate myself, it's kind hard when i hate myself, i hate myself, it's hard when i hate myself