uno

yeah, i don't know where to start, how do you admit that you're falling apart, i mean how will i admit that i'm falling apart, my mother's gonna worry but i'm fine in my heart, i've lived the words that i've said, and i live with a voice that tends to tell me that i'm shit in my head, well maybe i should fuck it and be happy instead, i should just say fuck it and be happy instead, right? right, 'cos there's a lot of people try to tell me how to deal with myself, but i'm not gonna listen if you mention my health, i don't care, don't tell me and don't text me, 'cos that kind of shit upsets me, just kind of affects me, it's bringing me down, and i'm not gonna lie, these days i prefer to just not be outside, and these days i just end up spending all of my time, with my girlfriend, but to be honest, i think that's alright, 'cos time keeps rollin' and i'm just makin' songs, i'm doing my best, still find myself stressed, and i'm no longer sure where i belong, i'm starting to rust, don't know who to trust, some people concentrate on style too much, but i think i just force myself to smile too much, and that should soon end for the best, i wanna live my life with no stress, love life and feel blessed, like, it's kind of funny on the inside, i'm tryin' to be a man, but really i'm just a little child, shit, and that's pretty much it, yeah that's pretty much it, oh yeah, my jaw hurts a lot because i grind it with stress, i was an idiot recently and lost a lot of my friends, nothing brings me joy and nothing makes me smile, being at school makes me aware of how i haven't been myself in awhile, and i wonder what it was like to be 11, wonder if there's such a thing as life after death, such a thing as heaven, and every now and then i think about the fact that i'd become a legend if i died at 27