hopelessness

how did i become, the mother of this son?, the face and mind, and hands of virulence?, i, who curled in cave and moss, i, who gathered wood for fire, and tenderly embraced, how did i become a virus?, hopelessness, i feel the hopelessness, i don't care about me, i feel the animals and the trees, they got nowhere to go, i don't care much about you, i don't give a shit what happens to you, now we blew it all away, hopelessness, i feel the hopelessness, how did i become a virus?, i've been taking more than i deserve, leaving nothing in reserve, digging till the bank runs dry, i've been living a lie