heaven knows

i've been surviving since the day you left our home, i've never blamed you but at times i feel alone, this lonely bad dream, isn't a nightmare, you made me stronger, you helped me get here, and i'm moving on beyond the memories, but i could never fall apart, i'm stronger with a broken heart, and i guess i don't mind being alone anyway, but now we're down here missing you, i'm surrounded by all but two, heaven knows it hurts a little more every day, i know the world is just a cruel place to be, but a lifetime later you still feel so close to me, i'm not soldier, but i'm a fighter, with every whisper, my burden's lighter, but it'll never disappear, without you i'm feeling lost, i know you're gone, so what's the cost, of feeling whole again somehow, it's all to much to figure out, did it leave scar when you ripped away, my longing burden i can't explain, did you make me bleed when fate cut you out, you left me here in a cage of doubt