no fair freestyle

i'm in the wrong in this relationship, you can wear my shoes, but will your laces fit, you only bring me down when i'm raising up, and i do what i can, but it ain't enough, and if i show you i love you, i ain't so tough, and if i show you nothing, then we're breaking up, i swallowed a lot of pride, i inflated my gut, the pieces are now broken, and i lay in a cut, home alone with alcohol, and the pain, it just sucks, my whole life outta me, and it's making me nuts, i'm about to die 'cause of this, someone bring me a tux, i love myself, but it seems that i hate my own guts, when i think of you and i, suicide coincides, i don't wanna lose you to another guy, i don't want pain and misery to define what we have, who we are, just take a little time, for yourself, and clean your little mind, if you still love me, show me a little sign, i don't wanna be the bad guy, no, i don't wanna be that guy, no, i've had your back since day one, there's not a girl who compares, nope, there ain't one, let me draw you a picture, let me paint one, if all the women just died, i wouldn't save one, i wouldn't calm you, that would be a fake one, i want you and only you, no i ain't done, man i love you, more than you can imagine, i can sit inside of a mansion, money piled up, and i'd still be throwing tantrums, still be depressed, still be obsessed with your laugh, hon, i can't fathom that we once worked back, now we're just packing up things and acting like we never had been, what kind of crap is that, i'm sick of twisting my back the other way around, looking like a pretzel for your love, you asshole, i'm about to pop a vessel inside of my damn skull, sitting here, crying for a girl who don't care, 'bout i left the bottle, thinking it's no fair, i don't deserve the crap that i hold here, hate, and your damn cold stare that you give me