l.i.o.n. (like it or not)

i lie awake sometimes and stare at the dark, something inside me wants to tear me apart, i see it every night and every day, it's all that i can do to keep it away, cuz i can't go on, i can barely breathe, trying to deny, it's a part of me, like it or not, like it or not, like it or not, went to a doctor just to see what to do, he said "too late my boy you're all but consumed", "feel free to come back when you've come to your grips", sometimes it's stable but sometimes it slips