life of the party

i don't wanna believe that it's over, you might see me smiling, but inside i'm dying, too proud to let it show, i ain't the one, you won't see me crying, but it's hard to let it go, all my time on the tour bus, wasn't good for us, and then you throw it all, started getting around with a few choice chicks, but we had something special, plus the sex was sick, do you remember, from the bed to the wall, on the floor by the fireplace, i know you remember, on the truck couldn't wait, so we got off on the garden state, somehow we must of got all turned around on last freeway, now i cant find my way home to you, oh girl, still, i get love in the hood, still, acting like my life is all good, still, putting up a false bravado, when i lost you i lost my winning ticket to lotto, still, everytime i raise my glass, i try to drink away my past, to the world i might appear to be the life of the party, but they don't see me, i never thought i'd be the one missing, oh, i can't take this emptiness, and i can't keep going on like this, and i can't keep pretending that this don't hurt like a mother babe, i know that it's crazy for me to come over, i had to see you, i know i gotta to change girl, i'll do that quick, you need to take me back cause the sex was sick, remember when we used to ride the bus, girl how we came up, money, career, chicks and all that, id give it up just to have you back, 'cause money's only paper girl, and this house don't feel like home when i'm alone, whenever you see me, baby remember, you all don't see, you only see what you see on the tv, this is my reality, girl you'll get to know me