afterlife pt.2 (the letter)

2 cups, aye, i'm finna just spazz, alright?, and shout out to spazz, right?, i remember being a youngin', fresh in the game, pops wasn't home so i was trying to get blessed in the game, hustling rocks on the block, summertime in the rain, thirsty for a body, trying my best just to get a name, i was in that shit to win it, empty that clip till it's finished, schooled by them older dudes that was there from the beginning, i was a shorty they told the whole story but the ending, see my life was like a movie but this movie can't be rented, i've been sinning but we all sin, the bible say we all kin, you know it don't work like that my nigga, we can't all win, mama taught me keep my circle small, that way it's more for me, stopped supporting me when she start having to go to court for me, lil' nigga by that corner store, fuck you on that corner for?, trying to get a dollar, niggas left bro on that corner floor, they forgot about my homie like he wasn't born before, trying to see that light, you niggas ain't been through that storm before, cause that sunshine ain't always bright, and them niggas that be talking, they ain't always right, man, my niggas changed on me, we was always tight, before them bodies got to dropping, we would always fight, but shit changed it'll never be the same no more, why the fuck these handcuffs don't feel strange no more?, lord please, i don't want to feel this pain no more, them cloudy days hoping that it ain't gone rain no more cause when it rains it pours, it's real in this field, nigga, most of them niggas in your circle ain't the real, nigga, when them guns pop them headshots don't heal, nigga, mama said if you don't get killed then the state'll deal with ya, and that's real fucked up cause she was right, so when i was in that cell i thought about that every night, got a kite sent from my homie, said "stop playing with them pipes!", told me, "fuck them other niggas, boy, this music shit your life!", took too much to earn my stripes, but i earnt the motherfuckers, took a while to learn my papers, but i learnt them motherfuckers, keep them out your business if it don't concern that motherfucker, you can't cross this bridge again once you burn that motherfucker, i've been through a lot of stress that's why i know some shit, especially to trust a bitch as far if you condone the bitch, you don't show that hoe where your stash at if you don't know that bitch, my plug roll that shit so when i cop it he gone blow that shit, i be on my grind all the time cause time money, man, i know being broke is a joke, that shit ain't funny, man, they say if you out there in them streets then your a dummy, man, but got to eat one way or the other, shit you don't understand, niggas don't get it, it took a lot just to get me, swear to god when i make it i'm taking my niggas with me, rest in peace to felisha, henno, lil edy and timmy, freaky, pooh bear and eazy, damn it, i lost way too many, boosie say if you my nigga you my nigga then, don't split up like dividends be there for 'em thick and thin, but in the end, niggas ain't loyal boy they'll snake you, same niggas be yo homies and when you make it, they hate you, streets gone be there forever and when you gone they replace you, lil' bro don't go down this road cause you ain't gone like where it take you, don't follow me, lil' nigga acknowledge and pay yo homage, shout out to all my niggas like spazz, midnight and bonnet, i told mensa that i was gone make it, i made a promise, they don't give it to me, shit i'm a take it and that's a promise, 50 a hunnid bonds, hunnid and 52 hunnid more, you say you keep it on you, nigga what you running for?, boy, you ain't really got a bag, what you stuntin for?, hunnid rounds in this k, it sounds like my niggas drumming, though, this for my brother, though, this really ain't no letter, bro, see this shit i'm doing? i just want you to do better, bro, man, my niggas changed on me like the weather, bro, hunnid mill' what i'm a settle for, fo' real