trying

oh i can't get out, invisible handcuffs locked on me, been praying for my period all week, and relief that i just can't see, i question everything, my focus, my figure, my sexuality, and how much it matters or why it would mean anything, i can't keep it together, i've been better, i've been thinking about it every night, i'm trying, i am, i'm trying, i am, trying to hide from my mind, i am, trying all the time, i am, trying to hide from my mind, i am, trying trying, why am i, i'm trying, i am, i'm trying, i am, trying to hide from my mind, i am, trying all the time, i am, trying to hide from my mind, i am, trying, trying, why am i.?, if it counts for anything, i didn't want to, i'm just looking for clarity, to help me get through, if you're set in your ways, what can i do, ease up, so that i can break it down for you can't, feed a beast you, leave unleashed it'll, come right back to you, i'm trying, trying to hide from my mind, i am, trying all the time, i am, trying to hide from my mind, i am, trying, trying, why am i.?, why am i?, why why?, why am i?