soldier through this

you work to hard, so when you come home, you tell me you are tired, and you don't want to talk about it, you envy my drive, and how i am motivated, you go down to the park, check out the carnival for a while, and try to forget all about it, i'm out of control, and you don't appreciate it, believe it, i need it, i feel intoxicated, i love it, i want it, don't make me leave you for it, you say i have changed, self-centered and vain, and you don't respect me for it, the world is the same, so i play the game, and you've grown to hate me for it, so weary and raged, there's no-one to blame, but still you resent me for it, i call all the shots, i hold all the cards, and you feel emasculated, believe it, i need this, i feel intoxicated, i love it, i want it, don't make me leave you for it, how do we reconcile this, i'm able to soldier through this