the mason

i held on so long, to what i've wanted, you to become, i see that you are not, what i dreamed you to be, that's not your fault, see, long ago, i made up my mind, she would be the love of my life, now i see ignorance is bliss, see, i fell in love with an idea in my head, that's not who she is, see, i, i take a thought, and i'll let it grow 'til underneath it's weight i am caught, when all i saw was a glimpse of who you might be, i laid down these bricks, building walls, so lovely and strong, there's no way, no chance i am wrong, our castle stands, and i know just where she'll fit, she'll be with me here in my arms, i'm crazy in love, with who i think she is, when i finally get to see you, i latch onto the hope i see in you, and i won't let go, i'll say look there's a chance what i hoped for might actually be so, but i cannot justify this, small suspicion that slowly is creeping in, that our castle walls are shaking, i fight the fact maybe i was mistaken, and i hate when i knew, that nothing was real in all that i had believed to be true, and the walls came crumbling down, and all i could think was where is all that wasted time now, see, long ago, i made up my mind, she would be the love of my life, now i see i never really knew her one bit, see, i fell in love with an idea in my head, but that's not who she is, no, that's not who she is, that's not who she is