no control

it's like watching a rose just wither away, when beauty crumbles and decays, it's like having a voice, with no chance to speak, it's something that you hold, and hold to keep, fall to my knees, god i beg you please, show me just a little mercy, help me, help me! i'm doing all i can, pretend i'm unaffected, but their pain became my burden, swear this isn't what i wanted, god, this house is haunted, the way that this could be, if things would remedy, and after all of this we've been through, i wish that we could switch shoes, this life ain't fair for us all, my ears resound, with the sound of broken dreams, i had where you would breathe, exist eternally, tell them to leave, you're coming home with me, remove that damn iv, i wish my words could cure illness, it's like running a race with no legs or, swimming a lap with no arms, the door may have slammed in my face but, the windows will heal my scars, swear this isn't what i wanted, god, this house is haunted, the way that this could be, if things would remedy, and after all of this we've been through, i wish that we could switch shoes, this life ain't fair for us all, my walls are built, and on display, i drown in guilt, due to dismay, maybe someday i can see how this has shaped me, bite my tongue, with swelling lungs, i gasp for air and let this go, swear this isn't what i wanted, god, this house is haunted, the way that this could be, if things would remedy, and after all this shit we've been through, i wish that we could switch shoes, well this life ain't fair for us all